Thoughts on Mum

I regret..

Not spending more time with you, Mum, after Dad passed away two years ago.

I'm sorry for staying away, for blocking you out of my mind, for immersing myself in work and every other non-important detail when I should have been by your side.

Being the youngest, you have always loved me a bit more than my siblings. I could do no wrong in your eyes and I guess I took a lot for granted.

Mum, it's been half a year since you departed but it still has not sunk in how much I really miss you. Occasionally, I'll dream of you, smiling at me in your frail condition and I'll wake up with tears in my eyes.

Sometimes when I switch off the lights in the living room, I imagine you are there watching over me and my family.

During such moments, my heart is heavy and guilt envelops me. But then I see my children snug in their beds and I know the cycle of life continues.

Mum, thanks for your care and love. Just knowing that you and Dad are together again comforts me no end.

NB: Thoughts of Qing Ming triggered this post. Prayers for my Mum will be conducted this Sunday.