Battery low

Missed last Friday's cell group meeting. Don't know why but I chickened out at the 11th hour -- 8.25pm to be exact.

It was like there were all those doubts floating about in my mind and I just let them overwhelm me.

I mean, there I was kinda looking forward to attending and all, and then the feeling that it was not really necessary for me to be there that night just swept over me.

Actually, I've never regretted going for the meetings. Not once. They always leave me upbeat and cheerful... though I get very tired the day after because I slept so late!

Three reasons I could fathom for not making the effort last week:

1. laziness -- Yeah, after three weeks, the lethargy does set in.

2. weakness -- both physically and spiritually. I had just recovered from another bout of diarrhoea (yes, after a recent bout of the same two weeks back) and my energy level was just way, way down there. Spiritually... well, less said the better.

3. fear -- I just cannot face my fellow cell group members and tell them about my week -- which, as usual, nothing much happens anyway other than a boring workplace and colleagues, and my usual duties as father to my children.

I really hope God will help me find a way out of this lethargy. Soon.